new monster

the conferrence of all blame onto myself is an act
of
rage

self-loathing does not make me weak
just
limited

horizons a bloody mess--
the world a cage--
each sunset a butchered side

yet each shining vermilion and
strips of marbled white, the eye of bone
like the sun

i may close my eyes to breathe
but i am nobody's bitch
but my own