awake again all night
and alone, time thick with shadows,
the t.v. going and the radio, maybe
i am finally distracted enough
to be able to say that, god,
i have known joy in pain but not like this,
every moment jewel-thick with its own worth
and each moment in hell.
(the t.v. going and the radio, maybe,
awake again all night,
and alone, time thick
every moment jewel-thick
and each moment in hell.
and each moment in hell.)