dearest

you realize that you're just going to have to do it all over again:
it began with a thought.

there was a cloudburst; there were sieves; there was a screaming thing.

there was the ever-present smell of eucalyptus.

and i thought, i dig my hands into the dirt and i dig up an explosion and

for what?  and for what? 

and for what did i give
you up?