i wept in a dream

masks

the image is that
i wept in a dream, lover,
that you were there and not there.

but the truth is,
i mourned you while awake. 
i mourned that i had never loved you.

that mask was made
of mother-of-pearl.  it changed
in every light until one was bright enough

to heat it
to a shattering point.

a maskless clarity.
i looked at the shards
that filled my hands
and said your name.